a piece will never be enough. by Leekaara, literature
Literature
a piece will never be enough.
hey love,
how's it going?
i heard the other day you skinned your heart.
through the grapevine, mind you -
i guess you thought your words weren't worth my time.
but you're worth my time.
i'd twist the clock and hand you the thirteenth hour
shattering in the palm of my hand -
if i could.
remember we used to trip on love
and stumble on life?
you -
with your sultry grins and dancing eyes.
me -
with my jaundiced laugh and hopeful gaze.
when was it that i stopped wishing?
when the cold iron bench which stung the backs of my thighs
managed to seep into my chest
like some warped and sickening joke?
when i hit the mirrors for that o
one year tastes bad enough. by Leekaara, literature
Literature
one year tastes bad enough.
i used to like the summer because i could see you.
but the mile between our front porches made my calves burn and my arms swing limply at my sides.
the pavement was too clean in that part of town.
there were no rocks to occupy my restless, tired strides;
there were no sticks to crack beneath my beaten, torn up nike's.
"you need new shoes," you once said, that time when we were sitting in the soccer field tearing grass from the dirt.
you never did like battered goods.
--
i used to like the fall because i could see you.
sometimes just your words were all i needed to draw the nails from my palms and take a breath of dead things.
"get o
The music pulsed, pounded, reverberated through to the soles of his feet, vibrating in his chest, ricocheting off the walls, across the ceiling, through the thick heat of the beating crowd. Lights warped and twisted, distorting images and faces. Colors that danced and exploded with each smash of metal to the fast-paced, exhilarating song.
His very fingertips were tingling in awareness of the pure passion consuming each victim of the song. Their bodies moved in spasmodic and unpredictable rhythm, jerking and convulsing as if they no longer possessed control of their limbs.
Glowsticks and neon attire created a massive psychedelic body of wate
fourteen days and counting. by Leekaara, literature
Literature
fourteen days and counting.
you're beautiful
like second hand smoke and fire -
even when you're gone
you leave behind embers and
ashes ashes -
you never did fall
you warm my skin
with that know-it-all smile
saying -
baby baby
i'm already high
your lips are always curved
a little leer -
laughing at a joke
no one has even heard
but me -
twinkle twinkle
little star
and then we're dancing
to no one's beat
because we're no one
laughing -
like we do when we're
exhausted
and possibly hurt
i catch them all in my
open mouth -
they taste like rain
and salt water taffy
the cotton candy kind -
on sticky summer
afternoons
you're beautiful
like fifty
you sang tenor,
but spoke with a voice like
high tide and raking.
you wrote poems,
and they were short and true like
origami cranes.
"good luck,"
you coughed,
and only half meant it.
i was imperfect,
with piano hands and
a bitter laugh.
i was a bird,
but i couldn't fly and
wasn't free.
"break a leg,"
i retorted,
with all my almost heart.
you were vague so that,
when we counted each paper angel,
we could look back and say
"i know it was the truth."
but it still hurts,
somedays.
when i think that you forgot.
"we didn't win,"
you murmured.
because folding one thousand
was never enough.
he was broken and beautiful, like old sidewalks and white chalk.
his beaten jansport backpack smelled of cigarettes and graphite.
sometimes when he walked home, he'd gather memories in
beige and tan and
brown leaves - crumpled, torn, crunching beneath his feet.
never fire
because the fall was meant for dead things.
he used to sing me songs at night.
not from the lawn up to my bedroom window,
but with me
beneath iron stars that
sometimes crashed - if we stayed out long enough to see.
"because heaven kicks you out, eventually,"
he said,
his words thick with slate and fall and trigonometry homework.
i liked him because he never sm
he always said he liked owning things
blew money on old films and
black wishes.
"i don't have wings,"
he croaked, and dropped
ten feet down and
six feet under.
i held my breath
to hear the splash.
no amount of broken breaths
were enough to fix that smile.
he only bled blue
in constant knots and shivers.
"that's enough!"
he screamed, and the stone
consumed each sound wave.
before i left
the tables turned
and he had hope
slip down his cheek.
"thirty silver coins,"
he whispered, voice
hoarse like rain and gravel.
he threw each one
at my feet,
but it never meant
forgiveness.
"i really can't stay."
you said, that night the ice cracked
like glass beneath your nike's.
i should have said something witty,
like the glitter in that envelope
or sunday, when you sang john 3:16.
now it's 12:00 monday and i'm
gulping down black coffee
choking on judges
like she's me and that's my body.
my lungs won't even make it
to your doorstep.
"okay."
you said, with casual detachment,
your glass half full and
eyes like winter.
because you know mockingbirds.
"they sing
until their vocal chords snap."
some days the pavement's black
and i think i'll miss you,
like friday evenings and hallmark cards.
buts it's always t
he hurts like smokers lungs and the morning after
when the only thing that doesn't ache doesn't matter, anyway.
last night the sky never quite turned black, only a dull red and charcoal.
even in the emptiest of alleyways the silence wasn't unnerving
because rotting fire escapes and a city of sins
weren't worth fighting for, in the end.
they told him he was giving up.
said, "wishing on stars is a cowards way out."
he didn't mind much, so long as he had a good pair of shoes
clothes on his back and hope in his chest,
where it usually collapsed and curled,
a match to thin paper
each marlboro eating at his organs.
rolling over in bed
i only passed one test in biology
on veins and valves and voices,
realized matthew 27:4
was carved on my intestines.
"callous,"
you snarled, and smashed
down through my arteries.
i wanted to tell it as a story,
pretend to be an engineer
and spread the sweet disease.
because your bones made me sick
and i could only sneer,
"pitiful."
every three moments
i checked my pulse
just to be sure
i was dreaming.
it was always alright
on the other side of town
when cat scratches ensured
we were stable.
"since when did it matter,"
which wasn't a question,
with concave ribs and
convex veins.
biology taught me
to separate my hea
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